01.17.10
Lately i have been ask to do
Lately i have been ask to do alot of photo’s lately from people who want me to to take pictures of them….
SO WE ARE CLEAR I DO NOT DO CLUB SCENCES, I DO NOT DO ANYTHING THAT WOULD DISRESPECT PEOPLE IN MY LIFE OR MY FAITH….SO PLEASE DO NOT ASK ME TO DO ANY THING Inappropriate BECAUSE I DO NOT DO THAT KIND I AM SURE YOU CAN FIND YOUR SELF ANOTHER PHOTOGRAPHER THAT WILL BUT NOT ME SO PLEASE DO NOT ASK.
thank you
12.31.09
Drive
Drive
Today marks an end of a very long year for me. This year I have also grown in knowledge in photography and now videography. In the dictionary drive means to urge relentlessly to continuous exertion… And I have that urge to be a photographer
I told my aunt on christmas i was going to slow down, and kinda take a break
because I thought I needed it and also I thought if I slowed Down someone I love would come back into my life, but when my dad gave me my first tripod, i felt it as an honor and a privilege to know I was using his first tripod and he handed it down to me. Now I have this drive, I thought I could turn it off like I a switch but I can’t I feel GOD keeps bringing to
places where HE wants me to be, to grow and keep going, People all over the world has seen my slides and made many comments on them, I also have had met many great photographers as well who have great talent and I have had the honor of being able to show them my work and they have been very honest on how I can make improvements on it. I dont want my dream just to be a dream now I want to wake up and make this dream into reality, I want to show my family what kind of person I can be, in the future I want my children to never give up on what they believe in. I am not the greatest photographer out here But I have alot of heart and soul and everytime I take a picture, it is a personal reflection of what I see. I hope this is the year for everyone I hope this year is wonderful for everybody.
12.16.09
PEOPLE WHO INSPIRE ME part 1
As I was was sitting on the bench out outside re learning how eat melons, a breath of wind blew past me, I looked up and I saw this beautiful cloud in the sky and I started thanking GOD for everything I been through, people Who has walked into my life and I have to say everyone has inspired me at one point or the other,GOD comes first because HE gave me a gift. My mom, who no matter where I was she would always make sure I was alright, one Christmas in 2007 she gave me what I needed to do my slides, A gift, A wonderful gift. I told her what I wanted for Christmas, And I was bless with what I wanted. Who says you never get what you want for Christmas lol. My dad, my dad is a wonderful man. I have memories of my dad and me. He would always have his camera in his hands all the time no matter what was the occasion or chasing a storm, He would make sure his camera was rolling and the batteries charged. I started to go back more in the past and Maria came to mind. Maria was such a wonderful lady, when I didn’t have a place to stay she let me in her home and took care of me just like I was one of her daughters, she really taught me how to be a lady, my favorite memories of her is when we use to wake up at 2 or 3 in the morning and make arroz y frijoles con pollo and we would talk about everything. She would try to teach me Spanish but I settled learning to read and write it, Myrtle st was the place to be, well at least I thought, and her daughters and I would always act like sisters(I love you Erica and juanita)I have such WONDERFUL memories. Waking up Saturday mornings and listening thalia and the barrio boys on Univision. Maria always watching her soaps at night…juanita was one of maria’s daughters, she was my best friend we defiantly ran the streets hanging out a lot on park street and broad street wearing that dark brown lips stick and the big hoop earrings talking about life and flirting a lot with the fellas, (I GOT THE PICTURES TO PROVE IT LOL)Erica and I had a lot in common when it came down to style, whenever I needed my hair or make up done I would have her do it for me. She is very creative and smart, when I found out maria passed away I was very hurt I cried allot mostly because of regret I wanted her to know how much I loved her and how great of a women she taught me to be, and even though my real mom was not able to be around at that time I wanted her to know what kind of a mother she was to me. When I started myspace I looked for Erica and I found her I was kind nervous to add her as a friend because there was a fallen out between me and her family. We were able to to rebuild a bridge that was broken. When I think of people who has inspired me I cant Forget Shirley Smith, Who was defiantly A big importance in my life who not only motivated me to do photography, she also taught me never ever to look down on anyone ever!!! She also taught me never to put anyone down but to encourage them. She was the type of women who was always was by your side no matter what kind of situation you were in, she would love you regardless, her door was always open, always plenty of food, and everyone called her MOM because that was what she was to everyone. No matter how many times I didn’t have what I needed she would give me extra of what she had, she would never leave me without anything I needed. She passed away on October 13 2008, I was so hurt I almost lost my mind, I could not believe GOD would take someone like her, but I had the opportunity to know her, and I was able to tell her how much of inspiration she was to me and how much I loved her. She knew what kind of women I could become. She told me never to let go of my dream no matter what, she said “if no one else believed in you I do always” & “fight for what you believe in ” I was bless knowing her. I consider these women to be foster moms even though I was never in state custody, these were real women I could look up to as role models
Photography in my eyes
Photography in my eyes
As I was sitting in the doctors office today,a concept for a Photo Shoot came to me. For the first time since I decided to make my dream a reality…it was weird. I mean from the begining of the shoot,music, and what kind of Chemistry I want the actors to have. I mean every detail to the end. I actually wrote notes about it and that is amazing because I hate to write. I had a vision of something I wanted to do so I wrote it down for future reference.
I am happy to work in the field where I can listen to music… I LOVE MUSIC, I love to listen to all music before I make a slide show, though my neighbors find my singing annoying because it can’t sing and I guess I have to laugh. I find I listen to music a lot before I chose the song I feel is right for a slide show…. It was also Sureal because the eye doctor told me I had a stigma in my right eye and I would have to wear glasses from now on.
It was GOD knocking me down saying I giveth and I can it take away in a heart beat. It makes me more grateful I have decided to become a photographer now. I took a chance on my dreams.
I find now I have more knowledge about photography, and how I can build a photo and how to make and make vision come to life in the photo, I also find I am definitely a people person, when I am out on a job I find myself more free and able to express myself without feeling judge, it is also a treat to meet new people who are really making a difference for someone in there life, like a parent to a child or a community helping there own in need, they let you in there lives and that is quit exciting to me. when i get to witness tears of joy because someone got a coat or a man proposed to his fiance or for the first time a mother gets to see there childs eyes. Being able to share in that is very exciting to me and feel it is an honor and a privilege, it is not having my name in lights or being rich it is being able to take precious moment and making it possible for people to always keep that moment in time, to always have it.
12.02.09
A thank you for our troops
A thank you for our troops
i would like to take a minute to say how grateful i am to the men and women in the armed forces, they sacrifice so much family,friends, and there homes,
they leave all that behind to give up there freedom so we can have ours. People who are willing
to give up there lives without even thinking about it, the strength and there courage is almost heavenly.
as a photographer you can take a moment and Suspend it in time and sometimes that is all we are left with Suspend moments of time we share with people we love,
In real life u cant Suspend time, you cant go back and change anything but as long as you have today with that loved one you can make a difference by letting them know you care and
i would be proud to have a someone like that in my life, at least i know someone was looking out for me lol, Sometimes i feel like i take people for granted and i get so wrapped up in my life, i dont even think of anybody else, that is why i want to let the people i love to know HOW grateful i am to have them in my life, and the people who protect us unselfishly i want them to know as well what a blessing i feel they are to me, they are the real heroes,they are superstars i look up to
